29 weeks!!!

Well oh well,

I am 29 weeks today!!!

I am without the right words to express how truly thankful I am for this. From the beginning of that 1st positive test I felt that my babies were a gift from God, but now they are so much more than gifts from Him. They are miracles from Him.

They are proof of God's Grace. They are proof of His Mercy. They are proof of His faithfulness. They are proof of how Mighty and Powerful He is. They are proof that God DOES exist. Every time I feel my little girls kick or squirm, there is no denying that God is real. I know that its only because of Him that I am still able to feel both my babies living inside of me.

This experience has helped me to see God in a way that I have never seen Him before.

I have had so many people, people that I dont usually talk to on a every day basis, come to me and say " Ive seen God work in your babies, and I just want you to know that MY faith has been strengthened because of it" , or I have had people say,
"Through your babies I have been brought closer to God"

I cant tell you how much that means to me. When doctors were first telling us that it was a big possibility that one or both babies would not make it, my heart was torn into a million shreds. Countless tears and screams went up to the heavens, but deep inside I kept telling myself that my babies lives are NOT in vain! And God has proven that to me over the past few weeks. He has shown me, how not only are their lives not in vain, but these past 5 weeks also are not in vain because it has brought so many people to their knees. It has brought so many people closer to God, and it has strengthened the faith of Rick and I.

My life has such a different meaning now. And I feel like I owe God every ounce of who I am for bringing my little girls this far.

I feel so honored that God has chosen MY little girls to glorify Him in such a powerful way.

Happy 29 weeks to my sweet angels.

Mommy and Daddy are waiting VERY patiently to meet you. We can not wait to see the faces of the two miracles that God has placed and allowed to grow inside of me these past 7 months.

They are going to have more love than they know what to do with, that is for sure.

Thank all of you so much for your continued support. Every email, every text message, every phone call, every visit, really does something extra special to Rick and I.
We are so thankful for each of you.

I cant wait to blog about my HAPPY 30 weeks!!! Please pray that God will allow us to get that far! I already have so much to be thankful for, because He has already brought us so far.

On a side note, I believe we are going home this saturday. That's IF today's events didnt interrupt that plan.
Today when I was sitting on the bench in the shower, I felt this funny feeling come over me. Rick was in the bathroom with me and I told him to quickly turn some cold water on. And the moment he adjusted the water my vision went completely black. I was extremely dizzy and so Rick helped me get out right away.
The nurse was in my room changing my linens and I told her I wanted to get on the babies heart moniters right away so that I could know that it was just me feeling funny and not them.

Well they hooked me up to the moniters and sure enough Baby Emma's heartrate, was very high. She usually stays in the 120-130's and even if she were up to 160 it would be okay but she was all the way in the 190's.
The nurse stayed and watched her for about 5 minutes and there was no change so she said she needed to call the dr.

It took everything I had to not cry my eyes out but I didnt want to stress her out even more. So I just held it in. I really wanted her heart rate to come down. I was so scared, because if she stays too high or too low for more than 20 minutes then they consider the baby to be under stress and will most likey make me deliver. So Rick and I just prayed and prayed.

The Dr had the nurses run a bag of fluid thru me and Emma's heart rate did come down after about ten minutes but that was a scary ten minute wait.

As of Monday they have not had me on continuious heart monitering. They have just monitered me 3 times a day for about an hour each time. But today since that happened, I requested to stay on the moniters.

I can see right now that once i am home, not being able to check their heart rates everytime I get a nervous feeling is going to be very hard for me.

So just pray about that.

Had an ultra sound tonight and both girls looked great. They were very active, and breathing very well with their lungs. Emma had 5cm of fluid and Molly had 4.4 so things are remaining stable. Praise God!

I guess that's all for now.

I have had low blood pressure, a headache and dizziness most of the day.

I am beat. Need lots of rest.