6 Weeks

Well Mercy,

Here we already are. 6 whole weeks has gone by since that one day, that has forever made my life better than it already was. The day my sweet girls were born.
It amazes me how fast time goes by.


Molly


Molly is such a ham. She has attitude when she wants to get her point across, and she is sweet as can be when life is going her way. She is a bed hog! Just like her momma, she loves to be sprawled out when she is sleeping.No matter where she is sleeping, my arms, her bassinet, her bouncy, she always has her little arms stretched way above her head. :)




She is still very alert, and attentive. She is still the bigger one. She was 5lbs 7oz when we were at the doctor this week. I can not believe how fast she is growing! She is already out of preemie diapers and has out grown several of her preemie outfits.
As great as it is, too watch my miracle grow right before my eyes, I will admit a big piece of me is sad at how fast this happens. One day I was taking a pregnancy test, the next day I was giving birth, and today my babies are on their way to 2 months old. I have found myself in tears many times this past week thinking about how fast everything has happened.
Molly's visit with the neurosergeon this past Wednesday went okay.
He said that her spinal leak has not gotten worse but it also hasnt gotten better. She does have fluid on the brain as a result of this leak. He said it is not a severe amount of fluid, but it isnt a mild amount either. As long as it does not get worse, she will not need surgery to correct this problem. So please continue to pray that if God chooses to not heal her, that He would atleast allow her to remain stable. My girls have been through so much already, and the thought of one of them possibly needing a knife to their brain....well I can not tell you how fearful that makes me. So, I am going to continue to go on good faith, and assume that God has this one just like He has had everything else, and that her spinal fluid leak will continue to remain stable.
After the visit to the neuro, we went and saw her peditrician because she now has the same Upper Resp. Infect that my sweet Em has. :(
The acid reflux is still an issue. She doesnt choke as much as she use to, but now she just projectiles when she vomits. :(
Molly came home from the NICU eating just at an ounce every 3 hours and now she is up to 3 ounces!

All in all my sweet little girl is getting big way too fast, and she is doing very well. I love her so much.

Now about my sweet Emma.



She is still very laid back. Very passive. Sweet as can be. Nothing seems to bother her. When she does cry, its only because her tummy is hurting. She rarely cries for any other reason! Oh well, except when I am putting her in her carseat. She HATES that. Now actually riding in the carseat, she does great. BUT...it is a pretty dramatic event getting her buckled in. :) My precious girl, is so loveable. They both are. WHen Emma is sleeping she love having her hands on her face. And she loves her eyes being covered. If she is wearing a hat she will pull it down over her eyes. If she has a blanket within her reach she will pull it up to her face.




Emma is also eating 3 ounces now. She is doing everything she can to keep up with her sister. Im not exactly sure what she is weighing right now but she has typically been running about 8-9 ounces behind Molly So im going to guess that she is close to 5lbs now. Which to me is crazy. She was only 2lbs 13oz at birth, and to see her now at 5lbs just fascinates me. SHe is on medicine for resp infection, and her reflux and medicines are not her friend. I think she will be like me in this area. I to this day, will not take liquid medicines. And when I was a kid, my mom had to hold me down to get me to take it. And well, Em has gotten to where, if she does not want to take her medicine she will either hold it in her mouth and not swallow, or she will slap my hand out the way when I go to give it to her. It's a true story. Little rotten booger, does not like her meds! I told her yesterday that she didnt stand a chance at getting better, because she spits out half of what goes in. I dont think she will beleive me, until she sees for herself. :)
I just love her!

Its so easy for me to forget about the housekeeping, and just enjoy the company of my babies. When they first came home I was very adament about keeping everything orderly, and on schedule and being the perfect mom but also the perfect houeswife. But I found very quickly that in trying to obtain perfection in my home, I was taking a way a lot of precious time from my girls that I cant get back. Time has passed by so fast with them, and I just want to Enjoy them every moment of the day that I can. No matter how much I stay busy in the house, there will always be SOMEthing that needs to be done. And, well my new attitude is, I will get to it a little bit at the time.

As long as My babies have clean bottles, clean clothes, the rest of the to do list can wait. I have babies to enjoy before they arent babies anymore. :)
And no, my home isnt a pig stye, but there are dishes in the sink, and clothes in the laundry basket, and Im okay with that. :)

We had a fabulous week with my Aunt Marsha from Florida.She was very helpful to Rick and I. And I was able to catch up on some much needed rest. We sure are going to miss her but she will be back in just a few weeks when my baby sister graduates from Highschool. :)

My Snuggies

My favorite time of the day, is when I just get to lay in my PJ's and snuggle my babies.





Molly (L) Emma (R)

Sympathy not needed---Thanks!

People say the darnest things.

Ever since we found out I was pregnant with twins I have heard it all. "Better you than me" or "Good luck" or "You poor thing" and blah blah blah.

I have always shrugged off people's ignorant comments because their thoughts are not my thoughts, so I will continue about my happy way and let them continue about theirs.

BUT not anymore. After a comment that was made to me the other day while sitting in the doctors office, I have decided that while they feel they can voice their opinions so freely, well so can I. :)

Im sitting there, in the waiting room minding my own business with my two beautiful peaceful babies and this lady walks by and with the sassiest tone in her voice she says to me " humph, you sure have my sympathy" and she kept walking!!!

I wanted to chase her out the door, and tell her that I did not NEED her sympathy because I happen to be enjoying myself!! Good grief, if anything she should be offering me her congratulations, not her sympathy. Its a blessing that I am able to have even one of my girls, but a pure miracle that I am able to have two. And I believe, if its okay with that lady, and the rest of the world, I would like to keep it this way.

That day, leaving the doctors office, I glanced in the backseat and saw two carseats and tears just streamed down my face for 30 minutes and I thanked God over and over for giving me Molly and Emma.

I am more grateful then any one will ever know, that I have TWO little girls to call my own.

Here is a picture of my sweet babies all dressed up today and ready to meet their Aunt Marsha for the first time. She drove 9 hours just to spend the week with us.

I continue to be amazed by how many people have shown us how special they think our girls are.

We have recieved visits, gifts, letters, cards, emails, so many things from so many of you and we continue to be so thankful!


My Beautiful Baby Emma



My pretty baby Molly

The Real World

Today was a busy day! I had my very 1st experience taking the girls out into the real world all by myself! Im telling you, it takes skills to juggle two carseats,a giant stroller I like to call my bus AND an overstuffed diaper bag :)My true talent came thru when I had to hold open the door to where we were entering while maneveuring my bus thru the narrow entrance. And even with being gone from home for 6 hours, I was still able to keep the girls on schedule and feed them at their 11am and 2pm feeds! Oh yes, I have mastered this "twin" thing. :)
We had two doctors appts today. The girls had an eye exam and then Emma had a cardio appt. Her cardio appt went well. The PDA valve that was open has closed! So that is a blessing. She and Molly still have an open PFO valve so they will be seen again at their 6mos to have this checked again. But apparently an open PFO is not as critical as an open PDA so we are thankful the PDA has closed on them both.

Now their eye exam visit I can sum up in ONE word. TRAGIC.

Because they were so premature they have to have their eyes looked at every 2 weeks until they have reached 2 weeks past their due date. I am not looking forward to them having this appointment again. I much rather them have to have their shots then go through this exam again.

They took these 2 metal prongs and pryed open the top eye lid with one and the bottom eye lid with the other and then shined a bright light in their eyes. Seeing their little eyes like that was scary. It looked like they were going to pop out their heads. Not too mention they were screaming bloody murder. Seeing the fear in their little faces made me cry right along with them. My poor babies were so scared and they did not understand why mommy was letting that mean ole man do that to them!
On top of the nurse holding them down. It was awful. And when it was all said and done I had Emma in one arm, Molly in the other, and all 3 of us were a basket case.

You best believe I scheduled their next eye exam on Rick's day off.
The girls will still need their mommy and I will be there with them, but I will need my husband! He is going to have to console me while I console them.

I know the exam may not sound that bad, but trust me it was. They were so scared and seeing your baby afraid, is the worst feeling in the world.

Tomorrow ( Friday) is Molly's head ultra sound. We are praying for good results but we wont know what they are until we see the neurosurgeon next Wednesday. Please pray that her Grade 2 Brain Bleed has been healed.

Oh, my big girl Molly has reached 5lbs!!! I cant beleive how fast they are growing. And my sweet Emma is now 4lbs 8oz.

They are growing so fast. Its so amazing watching them go from 2 and 3 pounders to 4 and 5 pounders. I am enjoying every second with them.

Although I have my moments of pure exhaustion, I wouldnt trade it for anything in the world. I LOVE being with them. And when I have help that is here, they can all vouch that me going to my room for an hour or 2 nap is very difficult for me. It takes me forever to actually walk away from the girls and make myself go rest. I love being with them. And these lack of sleep moments I am cherishing, because all too soon they will be gone and when they are that will mean my little itty bitty baby girls have turned into big girls who sleep through the night. And while I will be thankful that they are ABLE to grow into big girls, I will surely miss them being so small.

Life is short. And watching your babies grow up right before your eyes, is proof to that.

1 Month Old

The day they turned a month old



I Can not believe it has already been this long. I better not blink or I'll be blogging about their 1st birthday.

My girls are so special and every day I am so amazed by the fact that they are here, in my home, so healthy, and happy, and lets not forget SO beautiful. :)

They are good sleepers and when they are awake they are so content. There is no doubt in my mind that the "Molly" now was the same baby we called Molly in my belly. She is a very alert and active little thing. And she was always the active one in my belly. She loved to do them flips EVERY day.
Now when she is awake she just looks all around with her big pretty eyes as if she is taking in the world thats around her. I love it when she fiddles with her hands and puts them against her face.

Emma also looks all around as if her little self is trying to take in all the big things that surround her. She makes the funniest faces! She is so sweet and tiny. And very laid back, just like when I was pregnant with her. I just love them both so much.

They eat every 3 hours around the clock. Even if they are asleep I wake to feed them. They don't weigh enough just yet to let them just sleep. And we surely dont want them losing weight so I am doing my best to fatten them up.

We turned the a/c off for now. The girls get cold fairly easily and keeping them swaddled was not working because they do NOT enjoy having their arms wrapped up in a blanket. No matter how I wrap them they always seem to work their way out from under the blanket. LOL and So we just turned the a/c off and the girls dont have to stay swaddled 24/7 and they do great maintaining their temp. Mommy on the other hand....still has hott flashes so I will appreciate the a/c again when we turn it back on.

My sweet girls do have acid reflux but Emma's seems to be worse than Molly's. She gets so uncomfortable after she eats, especially late at night after eating. And for both girls, milk will just drain out their nose and they have a hard time catching their breath when this happens. It scares me every time. And they hate the spit up feeling. They cry everytime they spit up. I feel so bad for them. :(

The Dr prescribed us medicine for them so pray it works. I dont expect it to help them keep milk down any better but I do hope it helps with the burning they feel after eating. I hate seeing them in pain. But they handle it very well.

I cant believe its already been an entire month since my water broke, since I birthed them into the world.

I still think about the day they were born quite often. I am so glad they are here but there are moments that I miss having them in my belly. I catch myself tearing up and sometimes even crying when I look at pictures of me while pregnant. I never thought I would miss being pregnant because pregnancy was so HARD for me, but it is true...when your babies come out you miss them being in.

Nevertheless, I am so thankful they were born when they were because my belly was not safe for them. God truly saved my babies and I am so humbled by the fact that He did.

Time goes by so fast. I just want to be able to hit the pause button and enjoy them being this tiny for a while longer.

Welcome Home Picture

My beautiful gifts from God snuggled together at home, in their crib.

Home!

My mom had this quote on her facebook status and I just had to steal it because it holds so much truth to it. She said "Home-It's Why We Prayed"

The girls came home yesterday and their 1st night/day has been great. They are amazing little people and I adore them so much. I can hardly take my eyes off them. I cant get over how beautiful they are.

They got home at 8 last night and it is 8pm now so they've been here for a full 24 hrs and in this time I have only had to use formula for 2 feedings! And that was because we came home last night at their dinner time and they were not willing to wait for my milk and then the other time they had formula was today while we were sitting in the dr's office. So pray I can continue to supply my own milk for them.

The nursing has been a lot better than expected. I have nursed Molly several times and each time she takes it like a champ! I havent tried Emma yet. I will soon. I wanted Molly to get the hang of it first.

So Today was our 1st trip to the peditricians office. It's standard policy for NICU babies to follow up w/ pediatrician the day after discharge.

My babies left NICU weighing 4lbs 0.8 oz for Emma and 4lbs 8oz for Molly! My little girls are gaining so well and fast. Just yesterday I was excited Emma made it to 3lbs!

Today at DR they weighed 4lbs 1oz and 4lbs 8.5oz.

My pediatrician believes the girls are on their way to acid reflux. :-( I had a feeling this may happen, however still praying against it. Emma has the same eye infection Molly had a while back so pray that goes away soon.

The next two weeks are jammed packed for me with DR's appts for the girls. Eye exams, head ultrasounds, neurologists, cardiologist, etc...

Im going to get a real dose of reality when its time to get 2 babies fed, dressed, out the door, and into the DR all by myself because Daddy will be back to work. :)

Wish me luck, tho I may not need much. I am thoroughly enjoying this sleepless life called "mommy hood". :)

Pictures soon, I promise!!!

Coming Home!!!

Rick and I were scheduled for a CPR class on Friday night but the Dr called me this morning and asked us to take the class sooner because our girls would be coming home!!!

She said Emma is doing so well and is completely ready to be home. My sweet itty bitty girl is so strong and smart! Im so proud of her!

She is getting very close to that 4lb mark! She was 3lbs 14oz last night when she was weighed. I know that sounds so tiny...and it is. But She has gained over a pound since birth, and its amazing how much one pound can change the way a baby looks. Her little face is filling out and she is just growing up right before my eyes!

Molly had her head ultra sound this morning and the DR said that the enlarged ventricles that are swollen from the spinal fluid leak did not get any bigger. SO that is great news that her condition did not get worse over the past week.

However, it didnt get better either. It stayed the same. The DR said that she wanted to check her again in a week and was going to let the specialist see her x-ray results and get a 2nd opinion on whether or not this is something that they can moniter as an out patient.

I told the DR that I was extremely ready for them both to be home but only if they were ABLE to be.

She is going to call me back and let me know what the specialist thinks. If they think that its okay for her to come home then my girls will be here before the weekend!

If they want Molly to stay, then she will be home next Tuesday.

Im praying they can come home together so please pray for that as well!

Most of all, pray that Molly's spinal leak will be completely healed before her next ultra sound.

Gosh, I get butterflies thinking that in just the next couple days my girls will be HOME. No more having to leave them, missing them, having to drive 30 minutes just to see them. They will be right HERE with me around the clock. I so can not wait!

I am VERY Excited about getting to share my girls with all of you who have been praying and asking me DAILY how my girls were doing and how Rick and I have been doing through this. You all are angels and we cant wait to share with you our blessings that you have helped pray into our lives.

However, Rick and I have waited a very long time to share this time together in our home as a family of 4. So for the first couple weeks please respect our time that we have been waiting so long for, and call us before coming by. I really hate to even ask that, because I know so many of you are excited about meeting and spending time with our girls. And trust me, I WANT you to meet them as well! But please call first, to make sure that it is a good time for us, before you stop in. We are going to be adjusting to a whole new life schedule and it would make life a little easier on us, if we knew that we were having company beforehand. And if you happen to catch us, at a time that is not good, please dont take it personal. There is always "tomorrow". :)

Again, thank you so much for praying for our girls and for loving them and loving us and for showing us time after time that you care!

I look forward to my girls being able to meet all of their "fans".

Please continue to keep Molly in your prayers and please pray that our girls coming home would be a smooth transistion for them.

Thank you!!

3 Weeks Old!

Gosh time sure is flying by. I have some exciting updates for you all on their 3 week birthday!

Miss Molly is now 4lbs 2oz and is up to.....EIGHT bottles a day now!!!!! YAY! My big girl, I am so proud of her!!! She gets to move out of her isolette and into a regular crib tomorrow! Please pray she can maintain her temperature and still continue to gain weight once she makes this big transistion!

I also get to nurse her for the 1st time tomorrow. I am very excited about this! Pray she does well!

Miss Emma is now 3lbs 12oz!!! She is getting close to that 4lb mark! I am so proud of my baby girl for being so big and strong and SMART! She is catching on so fast to be so little. She is up to 5 bottles a day now. So she is not far behind her sister. She will be moving to the SAME crib with Molly by the weekend!!!

My girls finally get to be together! They got a little practice in today. When Rick and I walked into the nursery to see them, this is how we found them. All snuggled in the same blankie laying in Molly's isolette together.




The nurse told me to go ahead and get their car seats ready because she was pretty sure they would be HOME SWEET HOME by NEXT week!!!!!!!!!

OH MY GOSH.

The thought of it brings me chills! I am so excited I can hardly stand it!!!

Molly will still be seen every week as an out patient to moniter the spinal leak that she has going on but other than that my baby girls are SO ready to be home!

And Mommy and Daddy are SO ready for them to be.

I need to go do some baby shopping for some preemie diapers cause it looks like at just 4lbs they will be needing to wear them a long while. :)

Thank all of you so much for keeping my miracles in your prayers!

Please continue to pray for them!


My sweet Emma at 3 weeks old! She is such a relaxed and content baby




Miss Molly at 3 weeks old! She is also very relaxed and content but also very alert! She was awake for 3 straight hours today while I was there with them.

What a day!

A good day at that.

It started with me waking up to a phone call from the DR calling to help me better understand Molly's condition and she said that she showed the radiologist her ultra sound scan and there is no continual bleeding on her brain. It's just that there is a clot in the ventrical that is causing spinal fluid to leak into the brain but not leak into the actual brain tissue if that makes sense. The DR said that she expects it to resolve itself but we will have a better idea over the next 3 weeks which way this is going to go. She will get re-ultra sound every Tuesday and we are praying that with each ultra sound she will show improvement because we are SO ready for our sweet girl(s) to come home!!

They are SO close to meeting all the criteria and as long as they have no set backs it should not be long. All they need to do is learn how to maintain their body temperature and learn to eat from a bottle 8 times a day.

They are going to be moved to an open bed next week! This is a BIG deal! An open bed means no more heated isolette so we will get to see how well they do maintaining their temp AND Miss Molly is already up to 4 out of her 8 bottles a day!!!! Emma is at 3. SO they are making so much progress. ANd incase you are wondering..they get the rest of their feeds thru a feeding tube through out the day. They arent being starved :)

After talking to the DR I got ready because my former co-workers gave us a baby shower today at the office. That was such a nice treat. We got a lot of great things for our girls. One lady actually gave Rick and I something...a gift card for dinner. We are going to really enjoy that. He has worked so much overtime lately that a nice night of dinner together would be such a treat for us.

After the shower we went and saw our girls.
They had their very FIRST baths today and the best part was Mommy and Daddy got to be there and GIVE it to them!!! Oh gosh, how special that was!

We actually got to feel like parents today. We changed them, bathed them, then fed them and then put them to bed before leaving. It was so much fun.

Here are some pictures from their first bath. They absolutely LOVED It. I mean they really truly loved the warm water. Molly cried when we first put her in it but it lasted all of 10 seconds then she couldnt get enough. Emma did not cry a bit. From start to finish she was LOVING that water.

Thank all of you for your prayers! We would not be where we are without God hearing the cries of SO many of us. We truly beleive in the power of numbers so thank you for being a "number" on our behalf.


Mommy and Daddy giving Molly her 1st bath.


Mommy and Molly





Look how CLOSE to 4 pounds I am!!!!




Daddy getting Molly dressed





Mommy giving Emma her FIRST bath! She did so great!







Emma lovin' the water



I've gained 13.7 ounces in just 2 weeks!



My daddy is so proud of me!


And this is what it's all about!

Pray for my Molly

I posted a post about 10 days ago updating on the girls and I mentioned that they had Grade 1 bleeding on the brain which we were told means that its just basically a bruise on their brain and it was not continual bleeding.

Today they had another head ultra sound and the nurse practitioner called to update us with news that I was not expecting to hear.

Molly's bleeding has progressed to level 2. It is bleeding and the ventricles that are connected from her spine to her brain are swollen with fluid and they told us that they are going to have to moniter her closely and make sure that too much fluid isnt going to her brain.

If the bleeding does not get better then we will have to speak with a neurosurgeon about placing a shunt in her brain to stop the swelling and bleeding.

After taking all this information in the nurse practitioner asked me if I was okay and I choked back tears and told her I was fine then we hung up and Rick and I just sat on the couch put our heads together and I cried.

I just dont understand. I look at her and she is so happy and beautiful and perfect she doesnt seem like anything is wrong with her at all, yet inside of her little
3 lb 13oz body she has a battle going on and it breaks my heart.

I just want my babies to be healthy and home.

Please pray that Molly's bleeding will be healed without the help of a neuro surgeon and please pray that she will suffer NO long term affects from this.

I am praising God that Emma's head ultra sounds did not get worse. They have stayed the same.

Please dont stop praying for my girls, they still need all of your prayers.Rick and I still need all of your prayers. We need strength, wisdom, and guidance. All of this is so scary and overwhelming for us.

My girls are such strong fighters I know that they will be okay.
I just know they will.

Mommy's 1st Bottle

I got to feed the girls for the 1st time today! I changed then fed Emma first since she was awake when I got there and then did the same for Molly. They both drank their bottles no problem! My sweet girls are so smart! They are doing things that most babies cant do because they are still in their mommy's tummy. My girls are learning everything so fast and we are proud of them!

Here is me with Molly.



Me feeding my sweet Emma

Happy Easter!

Mommy, Molly,Emma, and Daddy


Molly and Emma




Molly



Emma







Rick and I are so blessed to have been able to spend this special Holiday with our girls. I have thought several times throughout today how Today is the celebration of Christ rising from the dead after dying to save us from our sins, but today was also a day of celebration that not only did He give me Life through Him but He also gave my baby girls life.
I am more and more thankful every day that God chose to save my babies.
And I am thankful for each of you for praying that He would do so.

The girls are doing well today. They both drank from a bottle today. This is Molly's 3rd time doing this and Emma's 2nd.
Molly drank her whole bottle within 10 minutes. My little oinker. :) Emma was not able to finish her milk thru the bottle so she had to have the remaining of hers thru her feeding tube. However, she did very well with the whole suck,breathe, swallow thing. It's just that towards the end she started to get exhausted and started breathing really heavy so we had to stop.

They will try them both again tomorrow.

They now weigh 3lbs 130z and 3lbs 5oz. Bet ya cant guess who the bigger one is ;-)

Emma no longer has her pic line in and Molly's should be out in a day or two.

By the way, for those of you who do not have little girls but you just have boys, dont be confused into thinking that they are the only ones who pee on you during a diaper change. haha

The very 1st time I changed Molly she tinkled on my hand and today while changing Emma she did the same thing! But her tee-tee literally shot out and all over the place. haha

She got it all over her little easter outfit too. :( Thank goodness for back up clothes right? :)

Molly's eyes are getting much better so thank you if you have been praying about that for us. Emma needs to do a little better with maintaining her body temperature. So that is something you can be praying about when you pray for our babies.

My little girls are so smart and so strong I am just SO proud of them.

Rick and I LONG for the day that they both get to come home!

Two Weeks Old!!!

Miss Emma Grace 2 weeks old today and wearing clothes for the 1st time!




Miss Molly Ann 2 weeks old and also wearing clothes for the 1st time :)





Where does the time go? My baby girls are getting so big! I cant believe how much they have changed in just a short time.
Emma finally broke 3 pounds 2 days ago! This was a major deal for her so Mommy and Daddy were very excited about this! She is now 3 lbs 1oz and Baby Molly is steadily packing on the pounds at 3 lbs 8oz. She is still below her birth weight because of all the fluid she had from the TTTS is the only reason she was 4 lbs 2oz at birth. Once all the swelling went down she dropped about 13oz. So now both girls are gaining a healthy weight and we are proud!

They finally got removed from the critical care rooms into the intermediate room. This is also a major accomplishment for them! This is the section they will be in until time to come home.

Both girls having been breathing on their own with no oxygen help since they were about 4 days old they both maintain their body temp very well and they are able to tolerate their milk thru their feeding tubes. They so far have been able to increase how much they eat every day.

They have tried the bottle. This is pretty much the last major thing they need to learn to do before coming home. They have to know how to eat from a bottle 8 times a day. Molly did well the first time not so great the 2nd time. Emma didnt quite catch on her 1st time either. They will try this again next week.

The cyst on Emma's head seems to be getting better but it is still there. Please pray it goes away soon.

Earlier this week Molly started having drainage in her eyes. I asked the nurse about this and she said it was common in preemies no big deal.
The next day drainage was worse. I asked their nurse that day about it and she said the same thing.
This was not sitting well with me at all. So I asked to speak with the nurse practitioner. She and the nurse kinda smiled at each other and agreed it was fine and told me that I should just trust them. I started crying because I did not feel comfortable at all that her eyes weren't infected. So the 3rd day for my reassurance they ran a culture on her drainage and today I get a phone call that her eye is infact infected. So she is now on antibotics for her eyes to get rid of it.

Please pray that her eyes heal quickly.

Other than those 2 things...the cyst and the eyes the girls are doing absolutely perfect and we could not be more blessed.

We are so fortunate for how well they are progressing considering that they were born 8 weeks premature. God has really had His hand over both my angels since the moment of conception.

Rick and I are so blessed and we love those little cuties with every breath that we breathe.

Thank all of you for your continued prayers and support. It means so much to us that so many of you continue to call, email, and ask about our miracles.

I wish I could update more often but my computer is still down! I will do my best to keep you informed whenever I am somewhere with internet access.

Oh some fun news both the girls lost their umbilical cords. Molly lost hers March 31st and Emma on April 1st ;) Their nurses were nice enough to save them for me. Dont laugh...it was the very thing that connected me to them for 32 weeks so I wanted to save it for their baby book. :)

Both the babies are very content little ones. Up until the past couple days Molly has been the more alert one but Emma is now getting to where she likes to be awake too. I held them for an hour each yesterday and the entire time they both stayed awake just a staring at their mommy.

We talk about all kinds of things together. I tell them about Easter and what it stands for, I tell them about their nursery waiting for them at home, I tell them every day how beautiful they are and how proud they make us, and I tell them how sad it makes me when I have to leave them. I tell them about coming home and how they wont have any more cords and how they wont have to be away from Mommy and daddy anymore...I am convinced they know every word I say. ;)

The other day when I was talking to Emma I told her how beautiful and perfect she was and the moment I said that she SMILED! So see she DOES know. And if you still dont believe me, the very next thing I said to her was that it makes me so sad to have to leave, and I lie not...she flipped over her bottom lip. :(

Maybe it was just by chance, but I choose to believe they get me. :)

Molly and Emma both smile a lot lately while sleeping. Rick says they are in their happy place when they do this. haha

Emma is in the habit of pulling her hat over her face. She does this several times a day. She likes things snuggled to her face. Which could be bad but also good cause that means she will LOVE lots of cuddle snuggle time with Mommy when she gets home.

Molly's favorite thing to do is crinkle her toes. I LOVE it when she curls those cute little things up.

They both love holding on to something. Whether its my fingers, their cords, their blanket, they love that security of having something in their hands.

Gosh, just blogging about them makes me want to sign off and go pay them a visit.

I miss them so much when Im not with them.

They are just beautiful, perfect, miraculous little blessings and I couldnt ask for anything more!