Today is 3 years since...
Our Wedding Day!
We had a sitter for today and for tomorrow as well so that we could have some much needed time together.
Here is a quick shot of me and my pretty girls right before we left.
It was a bitter sweet time being away from all the work two toddlers brings. And though my body "rested", my mind was working overtime. I could not stop thinking about them, worrying about them, and feeling guilty for not being with them.
I guess that just comes with being a mom.
These little people are always linked to us, no matter how far we try to run :)
This is the huge wave pool at Carowinds!
The wave pool was the most fun for me! I loved it. They crank up those waves for about ten minutes straight every 15 minutes or so, and I swear...if these were waves at the beach they would have a red flag up for sure!
They were so big, and strong,and fast... if I didn't have a float to hold on to, I seriously would have drowned!
But the thrill made it SO exciting!
This is a random ole man, shamelessly sporting his Umbrella Hat around in public!
I mean WHO knew, that such thing even exsisted? HA! Crack Me Up!
And we got LOTS of sun on our full day at the water park!
Just in the first 6 months of our new marriage, Rick's Plant he was at for 10 years shut down, so we were on a very limited one income for a while, and during that time we had a dear friend of mine in need of a place to stay, move in with her 2 younger children.
Rick finally got hired on with a wonderful company just in time for me to get laid off, almost immediately after. And then my friend moved out and that same week we started foster parenting, where we met "Monkey Boy" ( as u know him) and his sister Olga.
5 months into that, their Aunt came along and wanted him back, and the day she picked him up for good from us...was the same day I found out I am pregnant with twins!
It's no secret I had a horrible pregnancy. I could not get out of bed for anything because my body was so incredibly weak. If I had to imagine what Death felt like....it was all the ways I felt the first 4 months of my pregnancy. So many days I swore I would not survive my pregnancy. I was so miserable & weak that Rick had to come home on his lunch breaks to bring me Ice out of the freezer. I was so weak that I literally could not get out of bed to walk to the kitchen for fluids even though my life depended on it. I rarely had to use the restroom bc I stayed so dehydrated. Rick lost 20 lbs during my pregnancy because He could not cook in the house. Every little smell, had me hurling my guts out. After losing 12 pounds and about 3-4 times of being hospitalized for dehydration, I had to stay hooked up to an IV pump at home that kept anti-nausea meds in me 24/7. After a couple months of wearing that I slowly began to regain strength, and was able to eat & drink some things again.
AND just as soon as I was feeling human again I got diagnosed with TTTS where I lived in fear of my children's lives for the next 8 weeks in the hospital. Then the babies were born and I did not miss a single day of being with them during their 4 week stay at NICU...and once they came home I finally felt like my life was Whole Again.
We established a routine, and "whew!" we can finally breathe!
That "whole" feeling didnt last long, just 4 months after my girls came home my Grandma passed away, and I have been damaged in ways I could never explain.
And now our itty bitty babies are now tantrum throwing toddlers :) Who keep us very very exhausted & busy. But when I think back to the days I thought I would never get to watch them grow up, their tantrums bring me some twisted sense of relief.
I say All that to say, Our lives have been so hectic during these past 3 years. We have had a series of events surround us, and through it all our love has remained stable. There is no other person in this world that I could have surrived these times with.
Every trying moment we have worked through and every blessing we have counted.
My dad has told me often how he sees me & Rick celebrating our 25 years together. And that makes me feel so proud when I hear that.
I know that no one else on earth could love me the way Rick does, and I don't even feel I am deserving of a love so great. But I am thankful beyond anyones imagination that I have it.
As a mom, and also going through the grieving process of losing my Grandma, I have had many stressful moments. Okay, Countless Stressful Moments. So on the outside, I may not always look all the blessed ways I feel on the inside. But even on my hardest days, I am sure to tell Rick how much I love him and how very special he is to me.
I could not imagine this life without him. To me there would be no life without him.
He is the best person in the world to me and the only person that has ever made me feel like pure gold.
I love him more than I could ever show or say.
Happy 3rd Anniversary Baby, and I look forward to many many more.
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