The Real World

Today was a busy day! I had my very 1st experience taking the girls out into the real world all by myself! Im telling you, it takes skills to juggle two carseats,a giant stroller I like to call my bus AND an overstuffed diaper bag :)My true talent came thru when I had to hold open the door to where we were entering while maneveuring my bus thru the narrow entrance. And even with being gone from home for 6 hours, I was still able to keep the girls on schedule and feed them at their 11am and 2pm feeds! Oh yes, I have mastered this "twin" thing. :)
We had two doctors appts today. The girls had an eye exam and then Emma had a cardio appt. Her cardio appt went well. The PDA valve that was open has closed! So that is a blessing. She and Molly still have an open PFO valve so they will be seen again at their 6mos to have this checked again. But apparently an open PFO is not as critical as an open PDA so we are thankful the PDA has closed on them both.

Now their eye exam visit I can sum up in ONE word. TRAGIC.

Because they were so premature they have to have their eyes looked at every 2 weeks until they have reached 2 weeks past their due date. I am not looking forward to them having this appointment again. I much rather them have to have their shots then go through this exam again.

They took these 2 metal prongs and pryed open the top eye lid with one and the bottom eye lid with the other and then shined a bright light in their eyes. Seeing their little eyes like that was scary. It looked like they were going to pop out their heads. Not too mention they were screaming bloody murder. Seeing the fear in their little faces made me cry right along with them. My poor babies were so scared and they did not understand why mommy was letting that mean ole man do that to them!
On top of the nurse holding them down. It was awful. And when it was all said and done I had Emma in one arm, Molly in the other, and all 3 of us were a basket case.

You best believe I scheduled their next eye exam on Rick's day off.
The girls will still need their mommy and I will be there with them, but I will need my husband! He is going to have to console me while I console them.

I know the exam may not sound that bad, but trust me it was. They were so scared and seeing your baby afraid, is the worst feeling in the world.

Tomorrow ( Friday) is Molly's head ultra sound. We are praying for good results but we wont know what they are until we see the neurosurgeon next Wednesday. Please pray that her Grade 2 Brain Bleed has been healed.

Oh, my big girl Molly has reached 5lbs!!! I cant beleive how fast they are growing. And my sweet Emma is now 4lbs 8oz.

They are growing so fast. Its so amazing watching them go from 2 and 3 pounders to 4 and 5 pounders. I am enjoying every second with them.

Although I have my moments of pure exhaustion, I wouldnt trade it for anything in the world. I LOVE being with them. And when I have help that is here, they can all vouch that me going to my room for an hour or 2 nap is very difficult for me. It takes me forever to actually walk away from the girls and make myself go rest. I love being with them. And these lack of sleep moments I am cherishing, because all too soon they will be gone and when they are that will mean my little itty bitty baby girls have turned into big girls who sleep through the night. And while I will be thankful that they are ABLE to grow into big girls, I will surely miss them being so small.

Life is short. And watching your babies grow up right before your eyes, is proof to that.