I will fear no evil.....

I wish I could say that I fully believed that every second of the day. But the truth is I have many moments of fear because I know that this battle is not going to be over until my girls are here safely in my arms.

As you may have read on Thursday I went to the DR and Molly's fluids were a little high but Emma had plenty so the DR wasnt too concerned. However, I told him that I wanted to be seen first thing next week to make sure that their fluids arent about to get unstable again. So He agreed.

But yesterday and today I have felt like my stomach was getting tighter than normal. So I came up to the hospital and requested an ultra sound for their fluids to be checked.

Unfortunately, my instincts were right.

The strange yet scary thing is that Emma who is the Donor and has always had less fluids now not only weighs more than Molly but also has more fluid.

Emma has 10.1 cm of fluid and Molly has 5.5cm

My Dr was not on call today, but the doctor at the hospital who did my ultra sound did call and relay the info to him and they told me that because both babies had enough fluid and one wasnt lacking he felt things would be fine until I saw him at my appt on Tuesday.

I on the other hand am very concerned that TTTS is coming back and has reveresed where the Donor is now the Recipeient.

I am very thankful that we have had a "break" these past 5 weeks from dealing with the constant issues that TTTS brings, because that is 5 weeks longer that my babies were able to gain plenty of weight and develop without complications to a healthier gestational age.

Yet it scares me that it seems to be back. I only have 6 more weeks to go before my babies are born at a gestational age healthy enough that they can avoid having to go through NICU. I dont want TTTS to cause them so many complications that they have to be born earlier than what is good for them. TTTS isnt just a fluid issue. It affects their hearts, their organs, their skin, it can do a lot, and it can do it fast if it isnt able to be brought under control.

I know that I have asked this before and I know that all of you are, but PLEASE continue to pray for my baby girls.

Pray that TTTS is NOT coming back. That it is NOT reversing. That their health and lives will NOT be in jeapordy. That another amnio reduction will NOT be needed.

Pray that God will once again intervene and that my girls will be okay.

I dont really know what else to say, I am just really concerned for them.

These precious girls have come SO far and we have so little time left before they are able to be born healthy, I truly do not want them to be robbed of these last few weeks of growth because of this awful disease.

Thank you for praying.