I have recieved several encouraging words from many of you who were excited about my last post on the girls maintaining their fluids.
Two things that were shared with me that I wanted to share with the rest of you is:
1. We will Praise today and Pray tomorrow! ( Thank you Kat!)
How true this is. Don't just go to God when you NEED Him but go to Him just to thank Him as well. He doesnt owe us ANYthing and the fact that He is giving it to us anyways, just shows how merciful He really is.
Continue to pray for God to show His mercy on my little girls and remember to PRAISE Him every day that He does!
2. " Good News" doesnt mean we stop seeking Him, it means we seek Him HARDER! If we seek His strength in doubt, imagine what He will do when we believe.
( Thank you Derrell!!)
This really hit home for me because I have had my many moments of doubt. Even though I know in my head that God is in control and that He will take care of my babies....in my heart I have been holding back faith because of fear and doubt. I just want to hear the words from someone that my baby girls are and will be okay and no one can tell me that and to just go on faith alone has been hard for me because these are my BABIES!!
But even my in my moments of doubt God has STILL been faithful to us, so Imagine how much more He will bless when I believe!
I am finally turning a page in this chapter and its to the page of faith in not just my head but in my HEART.
Yesterday's news really lifted my spirits. And I know very well that things could take another bad turn but I just have this sense of peace that has come over me and I know that its because SO many of YOU are praying for God to not only protect my girls but to also Give Rick and I the strength we need to get through this, And trust me when I say we are feeling the strength.
So as Derrell said, this doesnt mean we stop seeking God but we ALL continue to seek Him HARDER because this journey is not over until its over. So please do NOT stop praying because we need God to CONTINUE to give us strength and we need Him to continue to protect our baby girls.
Here are some specific ways you can pray for us:
1. Last night for about an hour and a half I started having some pretty frequent contractions. Big contractions every 4 minutes and smaller ones in between that.
* Pray that my contractions cease, and that my body can operate like it is suppose to in order to keep my babies in there much much longer
2. Last they measured my cervix it was really short (1.6 cm) they are going to measure again tomorrow to see if it has changed.
*Pray that it hasnt changed and if it has then pray God will allow it to not change any more.
The Twin to Twin transfusion poses enough risk for early delivery. I dont need my body to increase those risks because it doesnt feel like staying pregnant! So please pray that God will allow everything to work the way it is suppose to in order to ensure a longer healthier pregnancy for my babies.
3. *Pray that the fluid levels between the babies will stay stable. As I have said so many times too much fluid is really bad for Molly's heart and not enough fluid causes Emma to go without the goodies she needs in order to stay healthy.
4. They are going to check the weight/growth of the babies on Friday.
* Pray that there is not a big difference in their sizes. In twin to twin transfusion it is VERY common for there to be anywhere from a 50% to a 200% difference in the babies sizes. This is very dangerous for both babies as it causes the bigger baby to have heart problems and it causes the smaller baby to be very anemic and having to fight to survive in and out of the womb.
PRay that our TTTS is not so severe that it causes such a drastic difference in their sizes.
5. Pray for other victims of TTTS as well. There are other parents all over going through the same thing emotionally that Rick and I are. Pray God gives them the same peace and strength He is giving us to get through and pray that their babies will also be walking talking examples of how GOOD our God is.
6. Pray that we will continue to recieve the encouragement and support that we have because it has really lifted our spirits during this very trying time.
Lastly, as all of you are praying for us, my prayer for you is that God will bless each of you in a very special way for being so faithful in your prayers for us.
My hearts cry is that God will save our baby girls and Thank you so much for joining in and believing that with us! Please dont stop!!!!
Erika, thank you so much for posting this, I love the comment that Darrel made, me in my own life I live with fear and doubt everyday and definetly need the strength to believe. I will pray for each and every one of those things that you asked us to pray for. "For even if there is darkness in the inside of the tunnel, the light is always on the outside". " For I will lift my hands up high and praise you through this storm". " Trust in the Lord with all thine heart and all thy soul and lean not unto thy own understanding, in all his ways acknowledge him and he shall direct thy paths". I try my best to live by those verses. God will not let you down, it won't go the way you plan because God has a better plan. Everything is going to turn out alright, the Lord knows how much you love those babies, and remember he loves them too... I love ya girl, see you Saturday!
ReplyDeleteHey its Christine the coomment above is from me, I didn't know to select the "select profile thingie so oh well, lol
ReplyDeleteErika and Rick, we are praying for you and your babies daily. Your faith and courage is such and ispiration and a great reminder that we as God's children need to pray without ceasing, in good times and tough times. His hand is on Molly and Emma and he will guide you all through this with his grace. - Tara
ReplyDelete"This is what all the work of grace aims at--an ever deeper knowledge of God, and an ever closer fellowship with him. Grace is God drawing us sinners closer and closer to himself. How does God in grace prosecute this purpose? Not by shielding us from assualt by the world, the flesh and the devil, nor by protecting us from burdensome and frustrating circumstances, nor yet by shielding us from troubles created by our own temperament and pyschology; but rather by exposing us to all these things, so as to overwhelm us with a sense of our own inadequacy, and to drive us to cling to him more closely. This is the ultimate reason, from our standpoint, why God fills our lives with troubles and perplexities of one sort and another: it is to ensure that we shall learn to hold him fast. The reason why the Bible spends so much of its time reiterating that God is a strong rock, a firm defense, and a sure refuge and help for the weak, is that God spends so much of his time bringing home to us that we are weak, both mentally and morally, and dare not trust ourselves to find, or to follow, the right road.
ReplyDeleteWhen we walk along a clear road feeling fine, and someone takes our arm to help us, as likely as not we shall impatiently shake him off; but when we are caught in rough country in the dark, with a storm getting up and our strength spent, and someone takes our arm to help us, we shall thankfully lean on him. And God wants us to feel that our way through life is rough and perplexing, so that we may learn thankfully to lean on him. Therefore he takes steps to drive us out of self-confidence to trust in himself--in the classical scriptural phrase for the secret of the godly life, to "wait on the Lord."
J.I. Packer, "Knowing God," p. 250.
I love to hear how positive you are. I read your post yesterday and jumped for joy. I was so excited for some good news, I know you need it. I am sorry I didn't come by yesterday things were crazy at work. I will continue to pray for all of you and let me know if you need anything. Thanks for keeping us all posted on what's going on. - Michelle
ReplyDeleteI am praying for you and your girls. Continue to cling to the Lord as you are doing and allow him to be your strength.
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