Drum Roll Please...

This morning we had an ultra sound and I was VERY excited to see that my little troopers are packin on the pounds!!! They already weigh 2 pounds 5 ounces each!!!! So, that means I am currently carrying almost 5 pounds of baby! They are getting much bigger now. When I feel on my stomach now, instead of it being mushy I can actually feel their little bodies most of the time.

Miss Emma is remaining head down. She doesnt turn much although about 2 this morning she was a little more active than usual. But I think it had a little something to do with the naughty Mocha Frappe I had from Mc Donalds at about 10 last night. haha

My sister has me hooked on those things, shameful huh?

Don't worry, I know the "caffeine" rule....1 a day if you must. And I didnt have any caffeine at all yesterday, saving up for that mocha! haha

Molly, on the other hand mocha frappe or not she is constantly a very active little girl! She still loves to do flips in my belly, and trust when I say I know every single time she does this. She is so big now, that I feel every inch of her turning her little self around.

Ok, so I am pretty sure that I will be going home very soon! My pre-term labor has been under control and the Dr said today that he doesnt even consider my girls to have Twin to Twin syndrome anymore!!!
Molly's heart had the thickening wall in the beginning from how hard it was having to work due to all the blood flow from the placenta coming her way but today her heart looked completely fine!!! God is good!!!

They took a look at the placenta and the umblical cords as well via ultrasound and both looked great.

I can not tell you, how many complete and total melt downs I had when we first learned we had TTTS. Dr's were giving us alternatives, and not reassuring us that BOTH babies if either would be okay at the end of this, and I have never cried and prayed so hard in all my life. My babies lives were in jeaporady and there was absolutely nothing i could do about it.
My crying was more like whaling. At the top of my lungs I would just let it all out. Some days, Rick, my mom, and nurses even would have to hold me down because my anxiety attacks were SO bad and my crying was so strong. My heart rate would go up, I would hyperventilate, I have never been so scared and so desperate for anything.

God deserves SO much praise, because in the pure depths of my desperation he has heard my cries AND all of YOUR Prayers and he has healed my little girls!!! I know that Emma and Molly arent here yet, but I know that today they are perfectly healthy normal babies in utero and 4 weeks ago they werent. So for THAT alone, God is good.

These past 4 weeks could have taken a turn for the worst, but they havent. They have gotten better and better every day. And every day I am more and more thankful to my God who is so faithful.

Today they took me off my magnesium ( the medicine to stop labor) They are going to moniter me here while I am off of it for the next couple days. If my body responds well, and I dont go into labor then I will be going home at the end of the week! If I begin to show signs of labor, then back on the magnesium I go, and my stay here will be prolonged, indefinitley.

I am going to ask you to pray, that if the hospital is where I need to be then that will be shown to us before I am discharged. As I mentioned the other day, I have a peace about going home now, so whatever is suppose to happen I am mentally ready for.

Because I have seen first hand that all of you DO pray and that your prayers ARE being answered in our favor, I have all the faith in the world about asking you to continue to pray.

So here are some ways how:

If I go home, pray that my anxiety will not be so high. Molly is essentially located on top of Emma, so Emma is not able to move around as much as Molly is. I know that Molly is okay, because I always feel her moving but when I begin to get a little anxious about Emma, all I have to do is look at the moniter and see her steady little heart beat and know she is fine. At home, I will not have this privledge. I will have to just go on faith. I know that God is faithful, But I still like the reassurance that both girls are okay. Pray that I can be peaceful about this once i get home.

Of course, continue to pray that pre-term labor will not be an issue for me anymore. I would love to be able to give God all the praise in the world for allowing my babies to be born at a healthy gestational age.

Also pray that the fluids will continue to be stable. The Dr said today that if they were going to be unstable then they would have done so already. He is confident that that the fluid levels are no longer an issue. I am thankful for his confidence but I want all of you to continue to pray this! I know that the fluids are ONLY stable because of what God is doing, so please keep praying that God will keep doing.

Today Emma had around 5cm of fluid and Molly had around 4.8cm.


Also, pray for me once I get home. I am suppose to be on complete bed rest, as if i were still in the hospital. Without nurses and doctors at my bedside to help me, this is going to be much harder for me. On nights Rick works this will be especially hard for me because I will be completely alone.
So please just pray that everything will work out.

Also pray for my iron levels. They have been low, and I have been taking 3 iron pills a day. I bleed like a stuck pig every time they stick me with the smallest needle, and so I am just nervous about what this could mean when I deliver. Pray that my iron levels can come back up to normal amounts.

Well I suppose this is all for now. I will continue to keep you all updated and thank you so VERY Much for all of your prayers. God is so faithful and I Just can not WAIT for the right time to come so that I can have both my little girls in my arms!!! I melt at the thought of delivery day!

Until next time,

Erika